October 2009
1 post
Away We Go
Life doesn’t always turn out the way you plan it to… does it? People make plans and they don’t always come true. People die, people are born, people come into your life and people leave… whether it’s intentional… by choice, or not. Home’s are lost, sometimes they’re found. Sometime’s you find a home within a person, or sometimes the home that...
September 2009
5 posts
Caesar Salads and the Unborn
I’m concerned about many of the females of, and below my generation.
The other day a teenage girl came up to me at work, holding a caesar salad and asked me, “uhh what kinda dressing is in this?” in a very “valley girl” sort of way. I looked at her like she was retarded and replied “Caesar… it’s a caesar salad”. She looked at me like she knew...
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It is amazing to me that something as simple as placing a coffee table in a certain room in the house can make me feel like I’m at home again. Ah nostalgia.
Shit. No, literally.
Feeling so uninspired thanks to the condition of my intestines at the moment. At least I don’t have an asshole on my stomach. Poor Mommy.
Is God punishing me for something by giving me poop every time I leave the country? WHAT DID I DO!!??
I really do hate life right now.
Being on my period and being sick at the same time makes me want to sit around and watch movies like Titanic and...
Where's My Forcefield?
Tonight as I was sitting in my bed with my wonderful boyfriend, I got a text message from someone I am not friends with, and have never liked. And the first thing this person did—right off the bat, was insult my boyfriend. First of all, why? I have no clue. Boredom? Perhaps. He proceeded to insult and finally when I told him enough was enough, he proceeded to tell me that the only reason he...
Narcacism
When a flower wilts and dies it does not make it any less beautiful than when it did bloom and emit wonderful perfumes.
Today my aunt looked me in the eye and said to me “If you look in the mirror and see anything but beauty— you need to work on that”.
She was right. Why don’t I, not cockily- but confidently love myself? I think I can if I practice. It is time for me to...
January 2009
1 post
“He’s left you princess. He told you a pack of lies. Forget about him.”
December 2008
3 posts
Cha-cha-cha-Changes.
I just found out in the passed 24 hours that a newly 18 year old girl I went to school with is 8 months pregnant, another 18 year old girl I know through friends is also ready to drop child, a girl I worked with at Jamba Juice is also pregnant, another girl I went to school with is now married, and another girl I worked with at Jamba Juice (and hated a lot) has died in a car accident in September...
“Why does anyone lie? Because they’re scared or crazy or just mean....”
– Where the Heart is
Let Me Be Your Wings
Let me be your wings Let me be your only love Let me take you far beyond the stars Let me be your wings Let me lift you high above Everything we’re dreaming of will soon be ours Anything that you desire Anything at all Everyday I’ll take you higher And I’ll never let you fall Let me be your wings Leave behind the world you know For another world of wondrous things ...
November 2008
2 posts
Forgive the Intrusion?
I have just moved. I have been taken away from my childhood home and I very much did not want to be. I live now in a beautiful house, but it isn’t my home. And to top it off, it’s still for sale, we are only renting. Yesterday some rich, middle aged snobs came in their BMW convertible to my new “home” to view the house. They walked around everywhere, in my room, my parents...
“I feel like I just found out my favorite love song was written about a sandwich.”
– 27 Dresses
October 2008
12 posts
“Life isn’t ass fat. And if it is, it isn’t ass fat that you can get...”
– Private Practice
Sick and Tired
I’m tired of waking up in the morning and being afraid of the day ahead of me.
Claw Foot Tubs
Sometimes I think a claw foot tub would make me feel better. But then again thats what I think every time I want something I don’t have. Makes ya kind of think about the act of wanting, It’s so much more appealing when you don’t have it.
“When one door is closed, don’t you know, another is open.”
– Bob Marley
“Love would never leave us alone”
– Bob Marley
“You have to be someone.”
– Bob Marley
“Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our...”
– Bob Marley
“Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you’re riding through the...”
– Bob Marley
“Open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you’re...”
– Bob Marley
“One good thing about music, when it hits- you feel no pain”
– Bob Marley
Something Stolen
I believe in love. I believe in crazy, head over heels, love. I don’t know if there’s different kinds of love. I like to think there is. Several months ago, I believed in, and felt a love that I’d never felt before. It was wild and ecstatic and the best feeling I’ve ever felt. I haven’t been able to feel this kind of love for anyone, for some time. It feels like...
Too Comfortable
One of the rudest things for a guest to do, leave the toilet seat up.
September 2008
13 posts
Just Something Shiny
Last Christmas Josh gave me a beautiful small diamond heart necklace. I wore it every day for months and months. I never took it off. I started wearing different necklaces but still alternating with the heart. I hadn’t worn it in quite some time. But today, I decided, right before I left to go out with Josh, to put it on. Later this evening as I was taking off a sweatshirt, I heard a sharp...
“They are gentle, loving, faithful, lacking in all guile and trickery. The words...”
“He is like a tree. He shelters me. I lie in his shade.”
– Pocahontas (The New World)
“Mother, why can I not feel as I should… must? Once false, I must not be...”
– Pocahontas
“Love… Shall we deny it when it visits us? Shall we not take what we are...”
Bathroom Goblins
Today I found a very expensive make-up brush that I had lost a long time ago. It was somewhere that I was sure I had searched a thousand times (Under the sink). At first I found myself slightly frustrated that it was so close to me and yet I couldn’t find it for years. Then I got over the frustration and was thankful to have it back. I was sure I had a bathroom goblin that was moving my...
Love should never leave you feeling tired or drained.
I found a letter that my mom read to me over the phone, from Josh while he was still at boot, in my desk drawer where she put it so I would find it when I came home. I read it intently because I had forgotten what it said. I read his sweet words. So gentle and loving. “I love you Brenn and always will. Have a safe flight. You will always have my heart, never doubt it.”
I cried over...
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“I’m floating down a river
Oars freed from their holds long ago
Lying...”
– I always listened to this song obliviously. Now I fully understand it and appreciate it. This is where I am.
Wanting is fun to a certain extent. When you want something because it’s fun to want it, it’s okay. When you want something because you need it it’s frustrating.
I need a job.
Nothin’ like champagne at 2 PM to lift your spirits.
Dear Stranger,
I don’t remember you. You’re a distant memory in the past. I thought about you every day when you were gone. Missing you intensely and crying for you to please come home to me. You finally came home. And now i don’t know who you are. And I know better who I am than I ever have in my life. I still love you. I’m just not sure what that love means.
February 2008
1 post
“Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then...”
– Unknown